HEY GUYS HEY my name is Cyrus, and I turn 23 this Saturday(Aug 2)! And if it’s not too much, I have a bit of a birthday request.
I suffer from PTSD as a result of childhood and adolescent abuse. The symptoms of it are so severe that I am currently unable to work, and sometimes have a difficult time functioning from day to day. Lately it’s been particularly brutal- I’ve been fluctuating between being depressive, paranoid, and dissociating. Sometimes a combination of the three, as well as other intense mind states that I have little control over. I’ve been receiving treatment for years… but the thing about mental illness is that sometimes progress grinds to a halt and it takes AGES of struggling forward before you finally get back to a good place.
I’m currently living with my boyfriend, who has a full time job with a decent income- which is pretty dang awesome! Buuuut we’ve currently hit a slump where we’ve been overwhelmed with credit payment, medical bills and vet bills. We haven’t had any money that didn’t immediately go right to basics in a loooong time- I’ve had to go weeks without medication because we just had to wait for a paycheck, and there’s a LOT of little things that keep adding up that we just can’t afford all at once. I’ve gone over a month without conditioner, vitamins, or laundry money. I wore the same pair of $15 flats for five years and I haven’t bought a new shirt in nearly as long. Not horrible, but it gets to you sometimes.
For a while I did what I could by selling commissions buuuut it’s gotten to a point where that’s not going to be an option for a while. Drawing as much as i needed to get a decent income was too overwhelming and causing unbearable anxiety and exhaustion. I planned to power through it, but my psychiatrist and therapists have instructed me to take an extended break from the commission business. There’s been an IMMEDIATE improvement within a few days, but as great as that is that’s still a lot of money lost.
SO, I’m openly asking for donations, because I’m not going to lie the absolute best, and i mean BEST birthday present possible would literally be having an extra $30-50 to go out to Kroger’s and just refill on all the necessities that’ve been been having to ration for so damn long. And maybe a bubble tea. Having enough to do something nice like eat out or visit the museum would also be great, but I’ll be straight with you: if all I get is $4 for a brand spankin new bottle of conditioner I am gonna be over the moon. That’s not even sarcastic, I’m literally tearing up at the thought of it. There’s a major loss of dignity that comes with not being able to keep up with basic hygiene because of your mental illness, and not having to think about that for a day would be PHENOMENAL.
If you’d like to donate, my Paypal is WORLDSBIGGESTTRUCK(at)gmail.com.
Also I don’t have an Amazon wishlist, but amazon giftcards would be amazing as well! Just shoot me an email at that same address.
Thank you, thank you THANK YOU so much for all of your support- I honestly don’t know where I’d be if it weren’t for the generosity and compassion of so many amazing people.
Signal Boosts are appreciated, but I’m not sure if I’d like this to get too much attention- If you can’t afford to give anything, It’d be HELLA nice to wake up on Saturday to a few ‘happy birthday’s in my inbox c:
I wish I could do more than just signal boost this. But uh. Hey guys. I don’t much do this stuff but if there is anyone who would be awesome to get this junk, it is Cy. So uh. Signal boost.